Thank you for sharing this. Yes, military and dolls don’t work. Been in there myself (feels like 1000 years ago now!).
How wonderful you discovered JM Dolls. I’d never heard of them. Good for you that they will keep you company until you’re ready for more. And they might stay after that!
Tldr at the bottom
So my story is after trying to search for a relationship for 6 years (at the time if my first doll) I realize that I’m not desired or that for some reason, I am looking in the wrong places. It was driving me, insane to the point where I genuinely thought of ending myself. That’s when I made my first purchase of my first doll. She was some cheap tpe doll and she didn’t last more than six months because I was new inexperienced and didn’t really know what I was doing but after getting that first taste about a year later, I got another one this one lasted a bit longer, but was also a cheap TPE one. While still having the dolls I was still searching for relationships but was only getting nowhere and driving myself even more insane. Eventually, I got to the point where the thoughts got bad again and I started looking for a doll. Stumbled upon the game lady site and seeing they had a discord link decided to join it and maybe a month or two after joining and still losing my mind over real women I woke up one morning early January to my phone having like 12 notifications from their discord. I was like what could it be? Turns out while I was hanging out in their discord I was liking photos in the photos chat and somehow entered a competition that I didn’t know I entered, and I somehow weather through the grace of God or just pure random luck won the grand prize! And that’s how I have my current doll Tifa. And honestly, since she arrived January 28, 2025 I’ve been in love ever since I still get the stupid urge to try and find real women these days but Tifa has become a major part of my life and if I’m away from her for too long, I get a bit depressed, but I know she will be there when I’m home. (Hit 8 years of searching in September….) Sure, I’m young. 23y to be exact. But I’ve learned that my traditional views on love don’t fit the generation that I have been put in. And the fact that I don’t agree with hook up culture really sets me apart from everyone else. Tifa has really shown me that life is worth living, and that I will always have her to comfort me when nobody else will and she is when I figured out that I truly needed a doll.
Tldr Got depressed from not finding a relationship for many years had two cheap TPE dolls that didn’t last got lucky with a contest that I didn’t know i entered and walked away with tifa and a reason to live.
Whoa, MysticForest. That is quite an intense story. I’m very glad you didn’t follow up on that idea to end things for you. You’d never have gotten that grand prize - and from what I read, it’s a grand prize in more than one way for you.
Really, I can kind of imagine your stunned face, staring at your phone and wondering what happened. 
That’s so great. Congratulations for you and Tifa, and who knows, there may be a lady with the right views in your future. Never give up, never surrender.
And until that happens, Tifa is there for you. And so are we if you ever need to vent or share something.
Thanks for having the courage to tell your story, my friend.
I feel the exact same way about dating apps. Honestly, I’m surprised I haven’t ended up in a loony bin yet…. But the dolls really do provide that sense of companionship when nobody else will.
Omg dating apps are the worst! I never realized how many broken individuals were in the world until I got on a few of those apps that won’t be named…
How did I end up with dolls?
Sometime there was some kind of tv documentary on Abyss creations and their dolls. Way too expensive to even think about it but always curious. Well at that time I was married and something like a doll would never be a possibility. Not as open minded as I am nowadays.
Then the divorce which I initiated as I knew I could not carry on without losing my mind completely in an unhappy marriage. There‘s always two for that and more than 10 years later I am on okay terms with my Ex. But back then I decided ‘no woman, no cry‘ and carried on. Loneliness got the better of me and I remembered dolls. Read a lot on forums and struggled with the decision but finally did it.
2015 came the first TPE doll. Sex was okay but most important my bed was not empty any more. A few failed dating attempts later I extended my doll collection. They are so much more. Companions, models, muses and cuddle buddies.
In retrospect I realized that even as a young boy, I enjoyed playing Barbie with the neighbours daughter a lot… back then something seemed to have gone wrong with me 
I love my dolls and they are so much fun and I learned a lot along the way in this hobby and also got to know some fantastic friendly wonderful people.
Well I did not know I wanted / needed a doll. I gave it a try and it was a good decision
I was horny 
As good a reason as any!
Isn’t that the truth. I found that out with Isabella, and now Roisin joined and the goodness is even greater. And no worries about fights, they get along just great. (So far 
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I’m glad I discovered them too. You must feel so much better after that divorce. Can’t imagine what an unhappy marriage is (never was married).
Yeah, my life is full of all kinds of ups and downs. Some of the downs are really dark. Most of the time I do try and talk about things that happen but sometimes I either don’t feel like it or feel like I’m too much of a bother to the people that I want to talk to about things. Glad I know I have another community to talk to.
Strangely. I don’t really need the love dolls and (honestly) I’d give them up for a living woman.
BUT…
I suck at that stuff so dolls is where it’s at for me!
You never know when something in real life happens. Never lock that out. And until then, there’s dolls.
How did I become a doll collector?
I think it started indirectly with 20 years of a terrible marriage, which thankfully ended in divorce in 2012.
Since January 2011, I’ve lived alone in my house. In the time that followed, I had three relationships: 2 months, 2 years, and most recently, even 6 years, but sex was always in short supply because I always chose the wrong women.
I’ve been single for a little over three years now, and even before that, I’d fallen into a depression between relationships. I started a new car-building project to distract myself, but I don’t have room for any more cars.
The loneliness was getting me down, and all my attempts to meet a woman failed. I wanted someone to talk to, but I didn’t want to get another pet; I’d already had a dog and a cat. So I decided to try a mannequin.
While looking for mannequins, I was eventually shown sex dolls, which I found visually very interesting but much too expensive. I thought about it back and forth and then ordered a TPE doll almost exactly 3 years ago.
After just a few days, I noticed how my mood improved and I became calmer and more relaxed. Then I ordered another doll and well, today, 3 years later, I have 27 dolls (TPE and silicone) and live with them more happily and peacefully than I could have ever dreamed possible. Like my cars, they have become a part of my life and a part of me, and I will never part with them again. If a real woman should ever come into my life again, she will have to tolerate the cars and the dolls or leave.
That is an impressive story. And also an impressive number of ladies you assembled around you.
I wish you all the happiness with each and all of them. Thank you for sharing.
Unless they break into my house, there’s a little chance to meet them. Lol.
It’s OK. I’m not lonely.
How did I find out I wanted/needed a doll… hmm… well… I recently have asked that same question to myself several times. I love to do this kind of retrospective reflection from time to time - asking myself, why I have done a thing or why not.
I am not absolutely sure, WHY or HOW I came across dolls. But I can do some assumptions on that, which turns out to be quite matching.
I live in Bavaria, Germany in my own house, which has been built in 2020. It has always been my top objective to build a house. And when I moved in, I had made my lifetime dream come true. Forward to june 2024. A massive storm hit my region (I know - florida residents will slightly laugh about what comes next… you have my heart, folks!). It had hard rain for three days - far more than usual… up to the point that people had to be rescued by helicopter from their rooftops only a few miles away. At this time the outer area of my house (especially the gateway of my property) was still in rough condition and at a lower level than the street. Yet I am a guy with quite good improvement skills. I face a problem… I think about it… I find a fix to buy me time for finding a final solution. But in that short time all improvements finally literally drowned - and I was doomed to just watch. In the end I can say: I had luck as no serious damage happened to the house at all. But that situation - not being able anymore to find a way out - had hit me harder than I expected. In consequence I was close to panic attacks on every little rain or raindrops hitting my windows for the next months. During that particular weekend I only hid under the planket with some classical music playing. I wasn’t able for some more… no TV, no playstation… I was just hiding.
I already told about that retrospection thing. When the storm went away and I started to find back to myself, I was asking me the question: how could it have happened, that this has drawn me down that deep.
The rest of my family - sister, parents - live on the other side of germany… hundreds of miles away. In other words: being a single, I am here on my own with just me and my thoughts. No one to lean onto. No one to give shelter. Or at least to fill that empty space next to me.
I signed up at a doll forum somewhat around start of november 2024. So this was the time, when I found out about dolls. I ordered my first doll at the end of that month. I still don’t know how exactly I came to that forum or the search term at all. But all I can say is: octobre was the month, when the entrance of my property was paved - including a yard drain. In other words: hard rain could not hit me that hard anymore. My house - my life dream - was safe and secure. Maybe there was another retrospective in that time, where I might have asked myself: what can I do to not get down that hard again.
Whatever it was in the end - forward to the present: I do not regret the decision to purchase my first doll. In fact - I now have four dolls with me. And there may surely be the one or another more in future. I have a better sleep, I am more relaxed (also stated by others). And with several storms in the meantime I never got down that hard again. Not totally relaxed in that particular scenario though - I’d say, the mental wounds are not fully healed. But the dolls helped me to not feel completely alone with just me and my thoughts.
They are dolls, yes. Artificial objects. But what I realized: you mostly see them out of the corner of the eye… subconscious seeing. And that’s what brings in this feeling of not sitting next to an empty space.
Of course - I also use my dolls for what they are built for (or at least, a few of them). There is always one of them laying in my bed next to me. As I wrote - I have a better and deeper sleep. Waking up in the night? Just turn around and my arm does not hit an empty space - but instead something, that feels like a female body… soft breasts… hair… and in a moment I am peacefully asleep again…
that ìs a great story 
Wow. Thank you for sharing that part of your life. That really sounds intense and even frightful, if you see that which love is crumbling away and you can’t do a thing about it.
Sounds like a bout of sheer luck or fortune that you found that forum and then the idea to get a doll into your life. And four now. I know how it feels, from not being there alone to having a few ‘someones’ around.
I sat here nodding, reading about your sleep. Very same thing here. Once I had Isabella in my bed, I slept a lot better. Last 2 nights Roisin was there as well, one doll on each side (with some room to move for me) and that, for me, seems to be even better.
I’m very happy for you, that you found such peace and relief with your ladies around.
Wow thats an eventful and tearful experience you went through with the house.
I completely understand and felt the loneliness you did, just having my doll around my house and then in my bed takes the edge off. Ive also noticed that my sleep quality is better and sound as well.
A trend ive seen here is we all have gone through some event or experience that eventually lead us to dolls.
I am artistic, love anime art, comic book art, cute girls. I tried marriage 3 times, not for me. Dating? Never had a problem there. Dated some of the cutest skinny girls you can imagine. Spent years going to strip clubs, drinking, etc. never out of control. Mostly to find the cute girls to date. I became addicted to cuteness, perfect bodies, beautiful faces. I just got a feeling when the right girl presented herself. But alas, cute girls always come with a price and after my 3rd marriage at the age of 45, cute , college age girls were no longer an option. But, that is what I liked. So I remained alone and after a few years, started yearning to touch a beautiful girl again. I ran into a few “well preserved” girls in their 40s, but they came with years of baggage attached, and I was not so confident anymore that I could maintain a relationship. I also had seen the Abyss Realdoll for 7000. plus dollars and was not real happy with the look of those dolls and certainly not happy with the price. Then, along came Doll Sweet and the 163 average chest doll. I was in love again and had to try that one out. Think I spent 3800. on my first doll, but was loving it! We took pictures, I dressed her up in cute clothes, she was perfect. Lean, cute, and with 0 baggage! I was totally hooked! We slept together, had great sex, took photos together, and even once to a vacation to a secluded luxury cabin in NC. I learned to fix silicone dolls and did some great repairs. I was previously a paint and body tech so the jump was not that far. Though it seems no matter how careful you are , if you use the doll instead of having her hanging in a corner, she will become damaged. Buying new dolls occasionally would become my norm. Dollsweet 145 has the cutest butt ever and she was lighter. Tried the WM 166C but too large and heavy and bewbs too large. She was georgeous but just not my style. I have been fortunate there is a market for good, used dolls. Where I am today? I found SM Doll and the 136A and the 156A, both dolls have the most stunning bodies of any doll I know of so far. I purchased 3 in the past few years, and being 71 years old now, sex is no longer a priority for me, but dressing my girls up and taking pictures is. I have them in my room where I can look at them , touch them, kiss them, and adore them! SM Doll 156A has healthier looking legs and arms than any other doll, most dolls have “stick legs and arms”. I am still always on the lookout for cute, small breasted dolls, but nothing so far has intrigued me. I will be happy with my current selection of dolls and ever growing collection of heads for some time now.
